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In the last month or so, in what I consider to be a period of much-needed exile, I have taken the liberty of doing something that I think all people should attempt. I decided to self-actualize and introspect, at least in regards to my particular place in the cosmos. Basically, I gave myself a big, “How are things in my world” evaluation.
In doing so, I came to a great realization
It's been one hell of a year!!
And upon retrospect, I feel as if I've come through relatively unscathed.
This is not a swan song and it is definitely not a mea culpa Rather, it is a commentary on how to make the best out of a bad situation.
Yet I am getting off topic…HELL OF A YEAR!
Please bear in mind that when I say year, I'm not referring to a fiscal year, a Chinese Zodiac-based calendar or what most folks would refer to as a calendar year. Egyptians and Mayans aside, this is my year, not yours, pal.
It took me a few days shy of twelve months to realize something; Divorce is a horrible thing to go through. It's not just about being alone. As a matter of fact, that aspect can be quite liberating at times. Furthermore, it's not so much that you've failed at what could arguably be descried as the most rudimentary of tasks. You know, finding someone, falling in love, getting married, having kids, getting old and dying. Seems pretty simple, doesn't it?
Yeah, simple my ass!
Relationships, love, sex, marriage, family and death. Depending on your religious and/or moral beliefs, you are free to arrange them as you wish. Frankly, I don't care. That progression is now foreign to me. And while it's not a subject I would encourage you to breach over cocktails, I'm beginning to wonder who is the odd man out? Is it me or is it my friends who have ultimately sold out to the morays of conformity?
Wait a second, scratch that. I am DEFINITELY the odd man out (in OH so many ways)! Then again, there's always advantages to defying conventional logic.
Sorry, I couldn't help that. I love apple but you folks who line up outside the store, two days before the iPhone gets released, are all LOSERS. Conversely, thanks for making me feel like a total badass. NUFF SAID.
All kidding aside, give me all your old Apple products. I'll just be waiting outside your garage door. If Moore's Law is any indication, I'll see you every 18 months, you obedient sheep.
I realize it seems like I got off task, but in reality there is something very unifying about the two dissimilar subjects. In fact, it seems that the 500-pound gorilla in the room, the one who is slowly gnawing away at my consciousness, keeps telling me that it's okay to stick with what is familiar. You don't always have to seek out the newest and greatest thing. Chances are, when you do, you're only setting yourself up to be let down.
Oh WOW! This is what Tennessee Williams called “A moment of Clarity” and don't doubt me. I don't take instructions from just anybody. Then again, who's gonna second guess a man who can pull off a hat like this.
I guess it just seems that people spend so much time trying to find someone that they forget to be themselves. It's almost as if the efforts we take to find another cause us to lose sight of who we really are.
Point is, if you're in love…great, I hope you stay that way. If you're not, be a dear and don't rain on our collective parade.
But most of all…
If you're alone…cherish it. Silence is a rare commodity in today's world. I know from experience that solitude is not the worst thing out there.